I’m playing the role of Judas Iscariot in a dramatic recreation of the Last Supper, according to Da Vinci’s painting. Each character give a monologue, traveling their way through their thoughts up until that night. If you’ll come, you see first hand that a lot played into this night. At first, being Judas was depressing. I picked the role because I figured no one else would want to, which traditionally was the case according to our director. But as I got into the role, I began to realize something for the first time: Judas is us.
Popular authors and bible study leaders will teach that Simon Peter is the ‘everyman’, the disciple that we can all relate to the most. I would agree for the most part, but mainly because of his chosen role. Peter has more face-time, more dialogue, a book in the Bible, is tapped ‘the rock’, the head apostle. So, whether he is fumbling in Luke or leading in Acts, we see ourselves as Peter. But not today.
After reading the monologue and learning what was going on at the time of these events, it would seem that Judas is the poster child for for humanity. Judas seems to always put his self first, his feelings, his ideas. He wanted Jesus to ‘do’ so many things and Jesus never did. To Judas, Jesus was a grand ‘let down’. It would seem that at the core, Judas represents a higher percentage of the population. Most of us experience a fringe existence in this world, living along the edges of those we feel are on ‘the inside’, those who know what it means to belong (like Peter), while we try and cope on the brim of what is supposed to be an inclusive group (like Judas). After a while, many of us can’t take it any more and we take matters into our own hands, making ill-informed decisions and sometimes making plans that lead us to regrets that we believe we will never get over. Judas believed that his betrayal of Jesus was beyond forgiveness and once again, took matters into his own hands and took his own life.
Learn this from Judas: Life is not about what we think, but about what God is doing. If we live life for ourselves we will often find ourselves in deep regret, but the forgiveness of God is never so far away that a turning would not be met with arms wide open. Just think? What would Judas have felt Easter morning?
May God grant each of us an understanding that His ways are higher than our ways, and that His love is far reaching, should we turn and face it. Be blessed on this day of the last supper.